I felt so left out, lonely today. My so-called friends doesn't seem to care about it and they didn't figure out that I'm emo. They talked among themselves and neglected me. Even Amanda and suha cheered me up. In the morning ,Suha didn't greet me cheerfully but to meiling was laughter as if I am not her friend. I forgotten that Poh Yin's birthday was yesterday as my mind was in a blur state, Joy actually scolded me! Can you believe that? They didn't even understand my state. Am I that not important? I REALLY HATE THEM but what can I do? Nothing! It looked that I'm there when they needed me and leave me when they don't need. AM I A TOY? I just can't figure out. I wanted to cry out but nothing came out. Is it that I am no longer part of them? I really want to find out, they just can't be bothered to understand what I'm feeling right now. It seemed that I am with them just not to let me feel lonely, weirdo or anything. I always encouraging myself that they had not seen the true beauty in me. I really hope that there is someone to encourage me through all the way through in this school. So what is wrong with my kiasuness, at least i can help them not to be late. IDIOTIC & IGNORANT PEOPLE!