Second week of school is going to pass after 12 midnight today. Time passed so fast that it is constantly reminding me that common test is just round the corner. Tutorial homework and projects are starting to come after me now yet I seem to be reluctant to face the truth.
Although I have met new friends and even bumped into my kindergarten friend in the school campus/ class, I can't seem to blend in to their conversations. I feel like I'm a follower instead of a leader, just like in Primary school and secondary school. Is this fate or I just don't have the ability to lead? I could only pray that I can lead myself to new boundaries. I DON'T WANT TO BE A FOLLOWER!
Also, I think I failed the selection of scholarships as by this week, many of my acquaintances are having their interviews whereas I didn't receive any phone call made by the school. My acquaintances are having L1R4 of around 7 points while I scored 9, which I originally thought it was quite a good aggregate score. However in reality, I am not performing good as well as the others. I shouldn't have look down on others on the first place if I couldn't even scored better than them, same as height. I am always laughing at others' height, in the end, I my grown even shorter than them after puberty stage. I think this is what they called revenge.
